Now that I've completely healed from my surgery, I'm ready to start treatments. I was supposed to start my first round the week of Thanksgiving. I had everything planned, medicine and all, and I was ready to go. I got to the doctor's office to do my baselines and have an ultrasound, and they found a 4cm cyst on my ovary. Great!! That's really all I could say. You can't do treatments with a large cyst. They told me I'd have to wait another month. I was so disappointed. I cried all the way home. They had no explanation for why I had a cyst. I had surgery the month before, so there were no drugs in my system to cause a cyst. It just popped up on its own. I've never had cysts, so it was a bit odd. To top it off, they made me take birth control pills to shrink it, which totally defeats the purpose.
Today was my post-op appointment. Because if you remember, I missed my appointment on November 5th. I somehow got in my head that the appt. was the 22nd. Then they couldn't get me in until today. So I had surgery on October 25th and couldn't see the doctor again until December 5th. I think that's one reason why my failed cycle last month upset me so much. I had two setbacks in a row. Anyway, my appt. went really well. We talked about my surgery, and he reassured me that he found absolutely nothing to be concerned about. He said he only found two small lesions of endometriosis, so it was very minor, and the polyps were benign.
We had a great conversation, and I told my doctor that if he thought IVF was the answer, I would prepare myself for it and accept it, but if he thought there was hope through IUI, I wanted to continue. He assured me that he's not ready for IVF yet. He reminded me that I'm not old. I always feel like a clock is ticking furiously, but he said, "You're only 36. You aren't old yet. If you were older, we might try some other options." I know 36 seems older to most, but in the world of fertility clinics that see people in their forties, I'm still young.
He said that we've been so careful with my treatments, not wanting to cause multiples or a risky pregnancy, but he agreed that now is the time to get aggressive. I agreed and mentioned to him that a friend recently said to me, "God already knows how many children he is going to give you, so just go for it." That statement resonated with me and was just a reminder that God's got this under control. He went on to say that he doesn't know what my threshold is or how many eggs I can actually produce because we've never pushed my limits. And, IVF couldn't even be an option until we discover my limits. He said that there is nothing wrong with me internally, and looking back at my previous cycles, I've responded very well to the drugs. I produce eggs. It's just that I have to wait for that perfect one, and according to him, increasing my dosage only heightens my chance of producing more eggs and heightens my chance of a pregnancy.
With that being said, I will begin taking some supplements that can help with egg production. It's a cocktail of hormones and vitamins. I'll take those for the next month. When I come back from Christmas, I will start my next cycle, and I will be taking a high dosage of straight injectable drugs. Pray I don't have quintuplets or something. Also, if I act weird over the course of the next two months, just remember that I have multiple drugs pumping through my body, and my hormones are on a roller coaster ride.
It's all good though. I'm healthy and blessed, and God is in control. Richard and I will be parents very soon. That I can promise you. Please continue to keep us both in your prayers. I've included the link to our fundraising site. All of this costs quite a bit of money. God is faithful and always makes a way. Thanks for all of your love and support http://www.youcaring.com/medical-fundraiser/our-journey-to-parenthood/50742
