Minor Setbacks

I've said it before, and I really mean it. I believe I'm having a baby. I completely believe in miracles. I absolutely believe to the core of my being that nothing is impossible with God. I believe that a doctor is not necessary for me to conceive. I wait every month to see if I'm pregnant, because I believe that I can naturally conceive a child. I don't care what doctors say. I'm under the care of the great physician, who is able to do more than we ask or imagine.  So I let setbacks and frustrations roll off my back. 

After a great doctor's appt. Monday, we got a couple of test results back that are frustrating. They tested my AMH, which they don't test until you are over the age of 35. It is a test that measures how many eggs they think you have. Well, anything under 1.0 means that your eggs are starting to deplete. My number was .44. It's not the end of the world. It's common for women as they age. It just means that I don't have as many eggs left. For the first time in my life, I feel old. Women in their forties oftentimes have numbers that are .1 or don't even measure, and they still conceive. It's just a small puzzle piece in the puzzle that is fertility. That test wasn't a big deal. It's expected as you age. It doesn't change anything. 

However, we did another test called the CMV test. It's a common virus that women carry and never even know they have. You need to be positive or negative for the virus. It's really very difficult to explain. My test came back showing that I am currently infected with it. It looks to be changing over to positive but hasn't yet. They can't continue on with our treatments until they retest me. The test will be done in two weeks, which is July 5th. They have to get the results back before we can proceed. This may be too much information for you, but my period is supposed to start July 2nd. I have to go in and have my baselines and start my medicine around days 3-5. We will be cutting it really close. It could mean that we can't do the procedure in July and will have to wait until August. I don't want to do that. I was hoping to have time to do two, if needed, before school starts back. 

It's a minor setback, but it's all good. God is in control. I just need prayer. The most amazing thing in the world would be for me to be pregnant and never even have to do the procedure. If not, then I need my period to be a few days late so that we can get the test results in. I need you all to pray. Thanks!

Game Plan

Yesterday was my doctor's appointment. It went better than I could have expected. He was very positive and wants to continue with what we did last summer. He isn't ready for IVF yet. That was great news because I was afraid he was going to look at my chart and results from last year and say that there is no point in continuing and that we should just go ahead with IVF.  That would mean a wasted summer because we don't have enough money raised to do that yet.

In fact, he said my treatments last summer seemed to work very well, even though we didn't achieve a pregnancy. I was concerned that we might start seeing some issues because of my age, but he said that I was fine. He saw no reason for any concern with age at the moment. That is all great news to hear.

However, even though we aren't doing IVF yet doesn't mean we don't need to raise money. It cost over $4000 to do two rounds of treatments last summer. My insurance only pays 50% of fertility medication up to $2500. We have just about maxed that out. My doctor is working with us, and we are going to try two new medications this first round and see if they work. That should help with the cost a little.

We have only raised about $350, but that has already helped. Yesterday's copay would've been $100, but we had some credits, so it was knocked down to $89. That was a blessing. I'm just gonna do what I have to do to get pregnant and step out on faith. I know God is going to send the money. You never know. I could be pregnant right now and never even do the first procedure, or I could get pregnant with the first procedure and not have to worry about affording another. God is in control. I don't know when or how, but one thing is certain: I will have a baby.

I appreciate all of your prayers and support. If you are interested in helping with our fundraising, we are currently doing an Avon fundraiser. You can message me for details, and as always, here is our fundraising site: http://www.youcaring.com/medical-fundraiser/our-journey-to-parenthood/50742.